Blueberries and nesting boxes July 27, 2009
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I got back from our country house some hours ago. I’ve had a really nice weekend. I’m starting to prefer weekends to ordinary weekdays again. It hasn’t mattered what weekday it has been the last couple of years as I’ve been studying. Every year I’ve had ambitious ideas about how I should start studying hard-core during the week so I’ll have time off during the weekend, but of course I’m always stuck with looooads of work on Sunday nights… So, Monday, Friday or Sunday hasn’t offered much of a change the last couple of years. But now I see something that’s better with the weekend when you’re unemployed: You don’t have to apply for jobs. At least not as hard, so every weekend I get to be like other people: off! I love it! 
The whole weekend I’ve just been chilling and not doing anything really. And since I’m at country house I can still say to myself that I did something as I went to the country house. Great!.. Well, to be honest I have done a few things. I’ve cleaned out a nesting box so some cute birds can move in next year. I’ve also picked a litre of blueberries! Yummy!! And last, but certainly not least – I’ve built my own nesting box!! It’s all put together now, I just need to paint it as well. Something to do next weekend Tomorrow I’m gonna find some nice program so I make a nice little something-something out of the pictures I’ve taken over the weekend… I’ll keep you posted!!
Blueberries!
I was busy dreaming this morning July 24, 2009
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I woke up at noon today! What happened?!? I set my alarm at 10 but it seems like I was too much into my weird dreams so I suppose that I had more important things to deal with than waking up. I’m just going to briefly explain my dreams, to express my weirdness. I don’t think I’m very strange for having these weird dreams, I just think other people are too embarrassed to tell theirs
- I was at some kind of girl-only-dinner-party. The girls were all my friend (although I’ve never seen them in reality). We had forgotten to by a steak so we had to sacrifice one girl. One girl signed up. We gave her some paracetamol for the pain and started to cut her up. There was no blood and it really wasn’t a nightmare. The whole thing was just weird and awkward. It was almost as if we thought that her shoulder would grow back again (and how much meat can you get off a skinny girl’s shoulder anyway?). I went outside to say something to my boyfriend and when we got back inside they were all gone. We understood that the other girls had decided to eat my boyfriend and I instead. We called the cops.
- A friend of mine (whom I have never seen in real life either) told me that she had been raped by her boyfriend. I tried to speak to the boyfriend who clearly was a complete d**khead and lack any kind of empathy. He also told me that my jean didn’t fit me. I wasn’t offended.
- I was at the swimming pool. It was nice a calm. Apparently I was in China (never been there in reality) and all of a sudden loads of Chinese school children invaded the swimming pool. It was OK because they were really good swimmers. They also had some kind of system to make sure they stayed out of reach of each other. That way they wouldn’t drown other children if they got tired, and they would never kick each other in the face. Practical. I was still swimming in my own part of the pool. They were wearing matching swim suits. Red.
Do you think my dreams are weird? Surely they are a bit strange, but not weirder than anybody else’s… No? Yes? Does it matter?
That’s it for now and probably for today. I’m going to our country house, I’ll be back on Sunday. Maybe I’ll get hold of a PC before then.
xxx
Dreaming with a broken heart – John Myers July 23, 2009
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I looooove this song! Not that it relates to me in any possible way, but I still love it. I think it’s really beautiful Thank God I don’t have to dream with a broken heart! Anyways… here’s the song and the lyric with it
When you’re dreaming with a broken heart
Then waking up is the hardest part
You roll out of bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she’s not
‘Cause she’s gone, gone, gone, gone, gone
When you’re dreaming with a broken heart
Giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can’t
‘Cause she’s gone, gone, gone, gone, gone
Now do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my, roses in my hands?
Would you get them if I did?
No you won’t
‘Cause you’re gone, gone, gone, gone, gone….
When you’re dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
The Butt Dance July 22, 2009
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Although this wasn’t my favourite performance from last night’s SYTYCD, it was my second choice. And it has really grown on me during the day. I also really love the song, it’s Koop feat. Ane Brun with Koop Island Blues, find it on Spotify now!!
What do you mean you don’t know what Spotify is? It’s a program you download and listen to music on. It’s developed by some Swedish organisation for musicians. Together with a number of major record labels they have created a database with more or less all the music you could wish for. And the best part? It’s for free! And the artist gets paid every time you listen to a song. Every now and then you get to listen to a 30 sec commercial, so it’s sort of like a radio. But with less commercial and only your favourite songs. It basically streams down all your music so you don’t need to save it on your PC. Yeah, I’m really bad at explaining it but it’s a massive thing in Sweden and just wait and see… It’s only a matter of time before it becomes massive in your country as well… Like skype, it’s all Swedish 
Haha.. enough of the patriotism! If you want it, go to spotify.com.. if you want an invite, ask me nicely and I might use one on you! Now watch the clip!
My favourite wedding dress July 21, 2009
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I started this morning by writing a long and complicated post about a dream I had last night. I got interrupted my MSN half way through and in the end I didn’t remember much of the dream anymore… Therefore I have now given up on finishing that post and started over instead. My dream did include a wedding dress and some hard-core fighting, so I’ll stay on the wedding dress subject for a little while. My friend, J, made me this picture of my favourite wedding dress. No! I’m not planning on getting married in the near future, but I did find this dress on eBay a couple of weeks back. I absolutely loooove the dress, it’s exactly the way I want it to be. I sent the link to my closest friends who joined me in my admiration and J, clearly the most romantic of my friends, made me this picture. I think it’s adorable!! Thank you J!
Tack J! Du är ju bara för söt! Du får hemskt gärna skicka mig orginalet om du har kvar det, för klänningen finns inte kvar på ebay längre! Snyft snyft! Men puss på dig för att du gjorde bilden! haha <3
I feel like I haven’t done much today, but actually I have done quite a bit. I’ve been busy with paper-work all day. Filling in forms, applying here and there and yes, paper-work. I had 11 points on my To-do-list today, and I still have 5 to go, so believe me when I say that I’ve been busy. Although it’s really boring to fill in forms and things like that, I still enjoy being busy. Sitting around doing nothing is really not good for me in the long run. I love being out and about. But I also love to relax once in a while. Working like a maniac as I’ve been doing over the last 2 years isn’t anything I will miss. But I do miss the “intellectual challenge” though! Haha
Gonna go watch Dr. Phil now, or maybe go to the supermarket… Hmm…
xxx
Babylove, my babylove.. July 21, 2009
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I feel really “out of the loop” of writing today! As I’ve been busy with Y the lats couple of days I haven’t really had the time or energy to be writing. We’ve been doing things all day long, or just cuddling at home. I love cuddling. Although I was quite unused to it when he first arrived. Actually, the first 48 hours I jumped every time he touched me. So if he touched my arm I would pull it in. Quite sad when you think about it. It must mean that I haven’t been touched (much) since last time I saw him and now I’ve gotten all un-cuddly 
Sad but true.
He left earlier today, my dad drove both of us to the Airport and waited while I dropped Y off. It was sad to see him leave, but usually I feel most sad right after he’s gone. Like, we say goodbye, I leave and then I cry. But as I was walking out to my dad I didn’t really feel like doing that either. So I kept it all in. I don’t like that part of living with my parents. I don’t have the privacy of being really, really alone.
But I’m not going to write a sad post about how much I miss Y, instead I want to be happy for the nice week we’ve had. We have been doing quite a lot of things and enjoying each others company. It was a nice change from speaking on the phone. I’m so terribly fed up of speaking on the phone. I dread it! I really do. It’s not because I don’t like speaking on the phone with him, it’s just that it gets really boring after a while. Anyone who’s ever had a distance relationship know what I mean. We speak about 2 hours every day, so over the last year we’ve spend at least 730 hours on the phone! Seven hundred and thirty! That’s more that 4 weeks on the phone. Such a waste of life. We should’ve been together instead. Doing things. Anyway, hopefully this distance-thing will come to an end quite soon and we can enjoy life together, rather than telling each other about our enjoyable lives. 
We spent the day in Gamla Stan, the oldest part of Stockholm. We just walked around and looked in little shops, at people and at buildings. We finished off with a fika at Café Kladdkakan (Kladdkaka is a special type of chocolate cake… similar to a brownie but creamier). Y had espresso and foccatia and I had mango tea (Y made an excellent choice for me there!) with a chocolate cake called Kärleksmums (Kärlek = love, mums = yummy). Although in the end we shared both the foccatia and the cake.
Me with my mango tea and chocolate cake
Me and my babylove in the Old City in Stockholm <3
The Kite Runner July 18, 2009
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I’ve just finished reading the book The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini. It’s about two boys, Amir and Hassan. They are best friends, yet the grow up under very different conditions. Amir’s father is a rich business man and Hassan’s father is their servant. Due to some events Amir lets Hassan down and eventually he and his father leaves Afghanistan for a better life in USA. However, the idea that time always catches up with you is significant throughout the book and finally Amir has to return to Afghanistan and make peace with his past. Really good book, some unexpected turns and a few expected ones. All in all, really good but I prefer his second book ‘A thousand splendid suns’.
Now, the BF and I are off into Stockholm’s archipelago.. speak to you later
Enjoying the company July 18, 2009
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Have I had a good day or what? Me and the BF spent most of the day by a lake in Stockholm with a friend of mine and her children. We were swimming, eating ice cream, tanning, playing a bit with the children and talking. We even went in a water slide!! Looaads of fun! I’m a true believer in letting out my inner child, the more often the better. After that we went home, made food and went outside for a picnic. The weather has been so nice today and I think that both me and my BF are trying to enjoy these days as much as possible. Not only are they lovely days, but we’re together as well
I’m just writing short updates these days as I don’t want to keep him waiting. Take care!
xxx
Pizza time! July 16, 2009
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We’re back in Stockholm! We took a train that arrived around 15-ish so we’ve spent the day in Stockholm, walking around and enjoying the sun. We didn’t do much, walked along the shores and had a coffee. Sat by the water and ate a sandwich… good times! Now we’re back home and we’ve ordered pizza which we’re gonna have on the balcony
We had a really nice time at the country house. It was raining slightly when we arrived so we went fishing… didn’t get any fish but it was nice to soak up the peace and harmony of the Swedish countryside
Next day we spent by some cliffs by the ocean. Mum and I went swimming for a while… it was cold! The BF also had a quick dip in the ocean, but I think it was a bit too cold for his taste. It was pretty cold though so it was quite understandable
Anyways… gotta go and pick up the pizzas
xxx
Nerves July 14, 2009
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Just gonna write a quick note as I need to leave in about 3 minutes (going to the airport to pick up the BF)… But I just called my former boss! I was soooo nervous! We didn’t end on the best terms, no need to describe that in detail, but things could’ve been better. Anyway, this was 3 years ago and I haven’t spoken to him at all since. But as I’m applying for money from the unemployment agency he needs to fill in a form to show that I’ve worked there in the past. Either way, I had to call him and ask him for a favour. Dreadful! I called yesterday and was happy that he wasn’t there. I called today and he was. The seconds while I waited for the call to connect was horrible! My hands were shaking and I had to breath deeply. He picked up, was really friendly and promised me he would fill in the forms for me. Of course I knew he wouldn’t be mean or anything as he’s a really nice guy, but I was still madly nervous. When I hung up my hand was wet from sweat and even the phone was wet! Gross! But it still shows how nervous I was…
Anyway… I’ve really got to go now We’re going to our country house so I might not write for a couple of days.. I’ll see what I can do…
xxx
