Memory lane September 29, 2009
Posted by confusedsince1984 in Daily update, Just for fun.Tags: Friends, Pictures
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Ugh! I’m feeling ill. I don’t wanna be ill! I woke up this morning with an aching throat and it doesn’t get any better. I’m feeling tired and my nose is starting to play games on me. I knew this would happen. I was thinking about it at work both on Saturday and Sunday. The air con was full on, and I was standing close to the door all day, so I had cold air from outside and the air con on me. Dammit! I don’t want to… so I’ve taken appropriate measures: anti-flu medicine, scarf, drank warm milk with honey for breakfast and now I went out to by some Soothers and Ribena (black currant juice… my mum’s home made tip.. warm black currant juice, best thing ever for the throat… although my mum’s homemade is better).
I was supposed to apply for jobs, but I’m not sure I’ve got the energy for that now.. Hmm… we’ll see.
I’ve usually used my BF’s phone as a camera the last couple of weeks, so my own camera has been left in my suitcase. But now I had a look of it and I found a few pictures I took before I left Sweden. Whilst packing I found an envelop in a drawer. It’s not any random envelop because this one my friend I has drawn on. We used to live together my first year in Southampton and she really was a major part of that year. After that she moved to Nottingham to go to another university and we never kept that much in touch. It really makes me sad to think of ’cause we used to be so good friends. She was studying fashion and used to draw on anything as soon as she could (or at least it appeared so to me). We spent so many hours in our kitchen, she was drawing something and was talking. We used to discuss everything from boys and uni, to religion and politics. I really enjoyed these moments and she was a great person to talk to. We had lots of common, but then we had our differences as well. What was especially nice was that we could discuss these differences in a very respectful way. I often find it difficult to discuss religion with people because some people will become so offended when you don’t agree with them. But it wasn’t like that with her. She would listen and understand, but yet not change her own beliefs and she never tried to impose her beliefs onto me. I missed her a lot my last two years in Southampton as well, so missing her is nothing new. But still… I miss our talks, I! Anyway, one evening she drew me on an envelop and I found this envelop a couple of weeks ago. To find things like these that you have cherished but forgotten, that is one of the best things in life!
Finally a good day September 23, 2009
Posted by confusedsince1984 in Daily update.Tags: Flat hunt, Friends
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Hey there!
Today’s been a really good day. We’ve got a flat!!! Yay!! Finally some progress! It’s the flat that we viewed on Sunday that is available on the 18th. We also managed to convince the owner of the flat we’re in at the moment to let us stay until then. So basically, our living situation is sorted!! 
I’m so happy
Apart from that l also had a nice chat with my dad on the phone – it’s always nicer to speak when you’ve got good news, isn’t it? Right before I called my dad a good friend from Southampton called me, it’s always nice to catch up I think it’s really sad when you loose contact with people who’s been important to you. Even if I can’t remain close to everyone, I still think it’s sad when a good friendship turns into a superficial one. So I’m happy she called
And then finally, I finished the day by telling the BF that I wanted some me-time. I tapped a bath, scrubbed everywhere, put on a facial and just relaxed – it was a m a z i n g !
My BF thinks I’m still having me-time. Poor him, little does he know that his iPhone no longer is charging, but instead is being used to write this post…. Mwahahaha 
Gotta go! Cheerios! xxx
Confusions August 30, 2009
Posted by confusedsince1984 in Daily update, Rambling on....Tags: Confusions, Dance, Friends, Listmania, Music, Video
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I’ve been terrible at updating my blog lately! My deepest apologies! Or actually, my apologies aren’t that deep anyway. At first I didn’t feel like it, and then I haven’t been home. Simple and honest. Why make excuses? It’s my blog.
I got back from my country house tonight. My last visit of the year. On Wednesday I’m going back to UK for a nervous new start in a country that is familiar yet so unknown. I’m going to Oxford instead of Southampton and I feel both sad and excited. In one way I’m happy that I’m leaving because, by now, I’m getting quite fed up of applying for jobs I probably won’t get. Also, it will be nice to see my BF again. On the other hand, I’m moving to a new city where I don’t know anyone and the prospect of starting all over again actually isn’t that exciting. I’ve got loads of really good friends, and sometimes I wish I could take care of the good friendships I have. Another part of me is also completely petrified over the idea of moving in with my BF. But you only regret the things you never do, and I think I would regret it deeply if I didn’t try. Anyway, this is getting way too personal but now you know! I don’t see the point of pretending that I feel a 100% for everything I do. Only crazy people never doubt their choices so there’s certainly nothing wrong with feeling a bit scared I’m sure it will be great. I also really look forward to moving in together, it might be really fun! The idea of NOT sharing a flat with strangers also sounds like a dream come true so I’m really quite excited. The only thing that really, really bothers me is the fact that I don’t have a job, but that topic is so boring that I’m gonna end it here.
I spent Friday afternoon in Uppsala with my friend E. We were in the same class in UK and now we’re both done with out degrees and confused about the future. It was really good to see her, catch up and vent our problems a bit. I hope I will be able to keep good touch with her in the future. Usually, I don’t speak very much with my Swedish friends whilst in UK, mainly we keep in touch through e-mails or facebook. But I hope I will find a way to keep in touch with E over the phone. We’ve always got so much to say to each other and I wouldn’t want to miss half of it just because we can’t bother writing it down. I should really try to keep better in touch with all my Swedish friends. I will try my best. But there’s so much I want to do this autumn, I don’t know how I’m gonna find the time (and money) for all of it. Here’s a list:
- Find a full-time job, obviously
- Find a flat, also very very obvious and essential!
- Go to the gym
- Spend time with my BF
- Keep in touch with friends and family in Sweden
- Keep in touch with friends all over the world
- Get myself a drivings licence… I’m 25 God dammit! It’s about time!
- Find friends in Oxford
- Write a book
- Find a dance class… perhaps?
- Travel… as always
- Maybe find some time to do volunteer work
- Eat properly
- Go to London and Southampton to visit my friends there
Hmm.. yeah, that’s about it for now.. It’s actually quite a lot! Oh well.. it’s late and I’m not gonna be rambling on forever. Tomorrow I’m having dinner at H’s. It’s gonna be nice, but I feel a bit anxious as well. Don’t want to say good by again. My thoughts go back a forth all the time. One second I feel the urge to get away from Stockholm and everyone I know, I can feel so trapped and as if I’m choking here. Then when I think about the fact that I actually am leaving on Wednesday I feel so anxious about being alone and lost that feel like I want to cling on to anything that can hold me here. It’s tiring to always be like that. But I’ll probably always be like that, to a certain degree. I have never been able to make my mind up about any of life’s big decisions. Oh well oh well…
I couple of days ago I posted a video from So you think you can dance with this song. I really like it. It reminds me of something. Here’s another dance, but the full song in included. The song is called All I Want by Ahn Trio
Nothing and everything August 27, 2009
Posted by confusedsince1984 in Daily update, Rambling on....Tags: Friends, Pictures, Shopping, Video
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What a strange day! I woke up late, had breakfast and all the things that come with it. Around 4-ish I went to a cheap hair dresser, I just wanted to cut the ends so I thought “how bad can it be?” I’ve been there a few weeks ago and it was good, nothing special but cheap and quick and my ends were cut. Today, I said exactly the same:
I: I just want to cut the ends, not my fringe ’cause I want to get rid of it and there’s not any need to cut my layers either
Hair dresser: So you want to even it all out?
I: Yes
Hair dresser: OK, so I won’t cut the layers or the fringe and will only even it out
I: Great
And the woman started cutting. I’m not entirely sure what when wrong, but she cut off 6 cm (roughly 2 inches)! So now I have an ugly in-between hair style. It’s not long, it’s not short. I had the same length when I was 13, I hated it then – and I sure don’t like it now! It’s the kind of hair cut that says I’m-so-scared-of-life-that-I-even-go-for-a-safe-hair-cut-kind-of-look. Dammit! Oh well, it will grow out again… While I’m at it I just want to point out that I’m sure it can look great on others, but I just don’t feel comfy in it. I’d rather go for it properly and cut it even shorter.. maybe next time.
After that I went into central Stockholm to meet up with J. It was really nice, I haven’t seen her in a long time and it was nice to get to catch up properly before I leave. We went to have a ‘fika’. I had a brie & salami sandwich and she had a salad. Yummy! I love brie & salami sandwiches and it’s something I always miss when I’m in UK. But imagine my surprise when I had eaten half and all realised that I was sharing it with a worm! Yes! A WORM! Sooo gross! I found it between two salad leaves. I’m so happy I didn’t eat it. I went to complain and although the staff apologised, they didn’t seem too surprised.
After that we went into a big apartment store and saw Carola! The average person might not know who Carola is, but I’m sure there is not ONE single Swede who doesn’t know who she is. She might be a bit crazy, but she’s a STAR! She had her major breakthrough in 1983 when she won the Swedish part of Eurovision song contest. Since then, she’s been in it 4 times, and she won the whole shebang in 1992. So seeing her was quite cool! We were giggling like little girls. After this J wanted to show me a perfume she really liked. It’s called Warm Cotton by Clean and I LOOOOVE IT! I had been smelling it all through our ‘fika’ and I though she used some really nice laundry powder but it turns out it was a perfume! Great for just everyday use. Who doesn’t want to smell clean? The producers describe it like this:
So pure, so fresh, it captures
the feeling of a fluffy, warm towel just pulled from the dryer or slipping into your favourite T-shirt line-dried in the summer sun. CLEAN Warm Cotton wraps you in notes of citrus, lilac and jasmine over a subtle but oh-so-sexy blend of amber and musk. A fresh, comforting, just-laundered scent.
I want it! Badly! A must have! It’s not that often that I fall so madly in love with a smell so maybe… yeah.. I need it! I hope J doesn’t mind IF I somehow get it one day…? Note to self: Get a job – NOW!
That’s quite a long post for today. Like an episode of Seinfeld, what was it about? N o t h i n g…. I’m gonna finish this post about nothing with Carola’s winning performance from 1983. You’ve gotta love it!
