Confusions August 30, 2009
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I’ve been terrible at updating my blog lately! My deepest apologies! Or actually, my apologies aren’t that deep anyway. At first I didn’t feel like it, and then I haven’t been home. Simple and honest. Why make excuses? It’s my blog. 
I got back from my country house tonight. My last visit of the year. On Wednesday I’m going back to UK for a nervous new start in a country that is familiar yet so unknown. I’m going to Oxford instead of Southampton and I feel both sad and excited. In one way I’m happy that I’m leaving because, by now, I’m getting quite fed up of applying for jobs I probably won’t get. Also, it will be nice to see my BF again. On the other hand, I’m moving to a new city where I don’t know anyone and the prospect of starting all over again actually isn’t that exciting. I’ve got loads of really good friends, and sometimes I wish I could take care of the good friendships I have. Another part of me is also completely petrified over the idea of moving in with my BF. But you only regret the things you never do, and I think I would regret it deeply if I didn’t try. Anyway, this is getting way too personal but now you know! I don’t see the point of pretending that I feel a 100% for everything I do. Only crazy people never doubt their choices so there’s certainly nothing wrong with feeling a bit scared 
I’m sure it will be great. I also really look forward to moving in together, it might be really fun! The idea of NOT sharing a flat with strangers also sounds like a dream come true so I’m really quite excited. The only thing that really, really bothers me is the fact that I don’t have a job, but that topic is so boring that I’m gonna end it here.
I spent Friday afternoon in Uppsala with my friend E. We were in the same class in UK and now we’re both done with out degrees and confused about the future. It was really good to see her, catch up and vent our problems a bit. I hope I will be able to keep good touch with her in the future. Usually, I don’t speak very much with my Swedish friends whilst in UK, mainly we keep in touch through e-mails or facebook. But I hope I will find a way to keep in touch with E over the phone. We’ve always got so much to say to each other and I wouldn’t want to miss half of it just because we can’t bother writing it down. I should really try to keep better in touch with all my Swedish friends. I will try my best. But there’s so much I want to do this autumn, I don’t know how I’m gonna find the time (and money) for all of it. Here’s a list:
- Find a full-time job, obviously
- Find a flat, also very very obvious and essential!
- Go to the gym
- Spend time with my BF
- Keep in touch with friends and family in Sweden
- Keep in touch with friends all over the world
- Get myself a drivings licence… I’m 25 God dammit! It’s about time!
- Find friends in Oxford
- Write a book
- Find a dance class… perhaps?
- Travel… as always
- Maybe find some time to do volunteer work
- Eat properly
- Go to London and Southampton to visit my friends there
Hmm.. yeah, that’s about it for now.. It’s actually quite a lot! Oh well.. it’s late and I’m not gonna be rambling on forever. Tomorrow I’m having dinner at H’s. It’s gonna be nice, but I feel a bit anxious as well. Don’t want to say good by again. My thoughts go back a forth all the time. One second I feel the urge to get away from Stockholm and everyone I know, I can feel so trapped and as if I’m choking here. Then when I think about the fact that I actually am leaving on Wednesday I feel so anxious about being alone and lost that feel like I want to cling on to anything that can hold me here. It’s tiring to always be like that. But I’ll probably always be like that, to a certain degree. I have never been able to make my mind up about any of life’s big decisions. Oh well oh well…
I couple of days ago I posted a video from So you think you can dance with this song. I really like it. It reminds me of something. Here’s another dance, but the full song in included. The song is called All I Want by Ahn Trio
So You Think You Can Dance-night August 12, 2009
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Spent the afternoon with K and H, and with K’s two children. She has the cutest children, but today they were nagging quite a bit. Even though I sometimes envy K for her family, today was not one of those days. If K reads this, I hope you don’t get offended. We both know what I mean, and that’s all that needs to be said about that. It was nice to catch up a bit with them. Haven’t seen them for a while. Party because I spent time at the country house, but they’ve been away before that. So it was nice to just hang out. Also, we’re going on a 22-hour cruise to Åland (about half way to Finland) next Friday. It’s gonna be sooo much fun! It’s the three of us, and their cousin (K and H are sisters ), so it’s gonna be lots and lots of fun! I can’t wait!
Tuesday is also the week’s best TV-night. Why? Because they show So you think you can dance. Today they were all really good, I loved the Bollywood routine made by all the girls. But the routine that stood out was clearly Jason and Jeanine’s routine! It was amazing! And K, you’re right! Jason is really, really good!
Anyways, here’s the clip. Now I’m gonna hunt down my BF and ask why he isn’t calling me back, haha
I also looked this video up (on recommendation from H) as I missed last weeks episode and OH MY GOD IT’S SO GOOD! I have seen the video before when I’ve youtubed other videos by Kupono, but I’ve never looked at it as I knew it would be something special (as it’s almost the only thing I found of him). So, as Sweden is a bit later than the US, I have been waiting for this one to be on TV. Of course I miss the episode it’s on. But my god it’s good! I think I would’ve almost cried if I had seen in while it was aired. So beautiful!! I love Mia Meyers! I’m gonna name my daughter Mia! I’m gonna force my daughter (if I ever have one) to take dance classes! Oh gosh! Let’s hope I never have a daughter! haha
Now! Time for BF-hunting!
The Butt Dance July 22, 2009
Posted by confusedsince1984 in Rambling on....Tags: Dance, NaBloPoMo09, So You Think You Can Dance, Video
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Although this wasn’t my favourite performance from last night’s SYTYCD, it was my second choice. And it has really grown on me during the day. I also really love the song, it’s Koop feat. Ane Brun with Koop Island Blues, find it on Spotify now!!
What do you mean you don’t know what Spotify is? It’s a program you download and listen to music on. It’s developed by some Swedish organisation for musicians. Together with a number of major record labels they have created a database with more or less all the music you could wish for. And the best part? It’s for free! And the artist gets paid every time you listen to a song. Every now and then you get to listen to a 30 sec commercial, so it’s sort of like a radio. But with less commercial and only your favourite songs. It basically streams down all your music so you don’t need to save it on your PC. Yeah, I’m really bad at explaining it but it’s a massive thing in Sweden and just wait and see… It’s only a matter of time before it becomes massive in your country as well… Like skype, it’s all Swedish 
Haha.. enough of the patriotism! If you want it, go to spotify.com.. if you want an invite, ask me nicely and I might use one on you! Now watch the clip!
So you think you can dance…? July 22, 2009
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As always, the worlds come to me late at night… I found a Swedish blog that has a competition where you can win a free photo shoot! Of course I want to win, so I’m gonna follow the rules accordingly and mention the competition and the blog in this post. You can find a link to the blog, and the “flyer” below. I’ve wanted to do a really ‘clear’ picture for a long time. It’s hard to explain but something that looks very fresh, crisp and without a lot of make-up (meaning that the make-up should be very discreet, haha)
Apart from that I’ve looked at So You Think You Can Dance tonight and I absolutely loved this weeks waltz! It was so smooth and beautiful! Every week there is usually one routine that completely blows me away, and most often it’s Mia Michael’s routine, but this week it was actually the waltz! I didn’t move at all during the whole routine, was just staring in amazement at the TV. Mesmerized! (BTW, I think it’s the first time I’ve ever used the word ‘mesmerized) I loved the music, the light, the clothes and of course the routine! Imagine to be able to dance like that! The guy is my favourite male dancer this season and although the girl is not really my favourite I think she was really good in this one. Have a look! It’s only the first couple of minutes that are dancing and then the rest is just babbling (can’t believe they dance for 1½ minutes and then they speak for 4!! More dancing, please!)
OK,I have more to say… but I’ll save it for tomorrow.. if I remember!
xxx
Eddie Ueahara – Dance to Express, not to impress June 24, 2009
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I absolutely love this video, I saw it years ago and thought that I should post it here on my blog.
I really miss dancing. I used to dance before I moved to UK, but I still miss it quite a lot. Was watching So You Think You Can Dance yesterday and they’re all soooo good! It’s amazing to watch! It’s not like I have any hopes of ever being even close to as good as they are, but I still miss dancing for myself. Not to be the best or whatever, but just as a hobby, it would be nice. Well, well… at with so many other things – it’ll have to wait for some other time… But watch the video, it’s wonderful!
